Moving to another Continent with a little “extra”

Hello there,

Yes, it’s me….after what seems an eternity since my last blog update, I thought it was time to talk about all the changes that happened/ will be happening, and how it might influence my “blogging activities” here.

  1. We are happy to be expecting our second baby this fall! As some of you who read previous posts may know, we are dealing with endometriosis based infertility when it comes to family planning. This hasn’t changed, and it never will. My husband & I never liked the thought of just one single child for our family, but of course, with the cards we’ve been dealt, it doesn’t come as easy as just “trying for another”. I had to undergo another round of hormonal stimulation (actually 2 rounds) to welcome another little one of our ‘snowflakes’ on board in my tummy via frozen embryo transfer. We couldn’t believe our luck to actually hold another positive pregnancy test in our hands again, but soon that joy was immensely overshadowed by hyperemesis gravidarum. It actually was so severe that I had to be hospitalized and hooked to an IV-drip. However, all that is in the past, since I’m now in my 22nd week of pregnancy and can look forward to the prospect of holding another baby in my arms in a few months. By the way, our daughter will be a big sister to a baby brother 😉

  2. As stated in the title, there are more news & changes happening in my/our life. In about 2 weeks – at the beginning of June 2016 – we will move to another country, another continent even. Until now we lived right in the center of Berlin, Germany – a bustling “melting pot” metropole. We don’t own a car since we don’t need one and pretty much everything is a short walk or 2 bus/metro stops away. Berlin is a city that can either make or break you, and it has become a part of my personality, but now there is time for change. My husband (an engineer in the automotive industry) had been offered to work for a subsidiary company of his current engineering company, and his new workplace will be located in the USA, Michigan to be exact. Since the company will be a big help with moving and paying for things like the moving company, health insurance etc, we didn’t think long before jumping at the chance to live this little adventure with as big as a safety net as possible (compared to the way of “quitting and restarting from zero”-workwise). We are positively excited for all the things to come and the big flight without a return ticket happening soon.

Of course, the combination of #1 & #2 result in a special adventure for me personally as I will give birth to my baby boy in another country and don’t even know where exactly, because we can’t go house hunting for a place to live until we’re actually THERE. Only then will I be able to choose an obgyn or birthing place.

I plan to update my blog more regularly in the future, and with these changes coming^^^ my updates will probably center around these two themes a lot. That is the direction I think I want to take in the future. If you are interested – keep checking back here 🙂

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Special Day

November 1st is a special day to us. It’s my husband’s birthday, but since last year (2013) it is and always will be that bit more special to us 🙂

1 year ago today we both were extremely nervous, as it was the day of the blood test at our fertility clinic. A few days before that we had our second embryo transfered via frozen transfer within our IVF procedure – and November 1st was the day to find out if our Snowflake actually cuddled up inside my belly.

I remember the phone call to the fertility clinic in the afternoon, calling in for the results of the blood test. My hands were shaking so much, and there was a fluttering in my chest that made it difficult to breathe. When I first called, I got told that the right person to tell the results was currently not at the phone and I should just call back in another 15 minutes or so. It felt like torture.

Those 15 minutes went by so slow, but at the same time I got more and more nervous with every minute closer to my second call-in. I thought I could not take much more of this and when I called again, the right person to tell me our result was at the phone, looking up my numbers (another few seconds that seemed like an eternity)…And then I heard the words that changed our lives:

“Congratulation Mrs. 🙂 – You are pregnant! (Beta hcG 624)”

It was the best birthday present for my husband, ever! Today he looked at our little girl sleeping and said: “It is my favourite birthday present this year, too” ❤

I baked chocolate chip mini muffins with white chocolate and sprinkles on top for the occasion 🙂

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Oh, you make me feel so…

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That is exactly how snowflake makes me feel since 4-5 days ago. Don’t get me wrong, I DID say “I would give anything to be pregnant and have nausea” when fertile people complained before, and I stand by my word. I would feel MUCH more worried if I wouldn’t have anything – especially with the spotting and off-on-bleeding. What I EXPECTED was that “morning” sickness or well nausea at just a certain time of the day, or coming & going several times. What I DIDN’T EXPECT was for that special nausea to torture me every minute of the day. It never leaves, and it’s not like a hangover or illness nausea, not like any kind of nausea I’ve experienced before. It takes so much energy to feel like you are about to throw up any second….every second of the day. it’s worst at night and early morning…I often think I just want to sleep and not wake up until it’s over..like “Sleeping Beauty”.

The other horrible side effect is that I have to really force food down my throat. Never has the simple task of “eating” been such a torture for me. That’s why this picture^^^described my feelings perfect. I feel tortured and like my body is taking itself apart from the inside, but I could throw up hearts because it also lets me feel that snowflake is there and probably healthy doing it’s thing, growing and all ❤

I will probably continue to feel like this until Christmas, because only then the placenta will be able to sustain itself, thus the HCG is not needed anymore and with it the pregnancy nausea should vanish as well. I SURE HOPE SO!!!