A special kind of happiness『blogtober 2014』

Day 19 of blogtober2014 is about happiness.

What makes you happy?

There are lots of little things that make me feel happy, but all of them can’t compare to that special, fuzzy feeling in my heart when I see those two together:

My husband & our baby girl – my whole world – a special kind of happiness.




Learn to be what you are『blogtober 2014』

Day 12 of blogtober 2014 is here with another nice prompt…

Best advice you’ve been given

Throughout life, we’ve been given all sorts of advice – good & bad, from different people – again, good & bad. I remember my mother and grandmother were always on my side in times of worry or sadness and told me many things that helped me in those situations, and somewhat shaped me as the person I am today. I also take many advice from sayings and/or books I’ve read, beginning in early childhood.

The advice that has been stuck in my mind for years now, is a quote that I’ve read somewhere I don’t even remember, but the essence of it just feels so strong.

Learn to be what you are.
And learn to resign with all good grace,
all that you are not.

– by Henri-Frédéric Amiel (1821-1881)

In my opinion, these few words have everything a good advice need – both: do & don’t, self-reflection, stating that all of it is a process and not achieved in a blink of an eye. I feel that true happiness & satisfaction in life can be achieved when one is totally aware of who they are & at the same time of who they are not – and most importantly: if they can let go of the part they are not. It really is a process to understanding to be content with the person you are, with all the good & bad traits you might have. And also letting go of an image of someone you think you need to be, or want to be due to certain influences from the outside.

The realization of who you truely are as a person, followed by the unconditional acceptance of that person is something worth striving for, isn’t it.



Hello there, in 2024…『blogtober 2014』

Today is letter writing day for October 8th of blogtober 2014. It’s like a little time capsule entry, isn’t it. 🙂

A letter to yourself in 10 years.
Hi there Tina,
it’s me (which is you) from 10 years ago, October 8th 2014. Writing this letter to you ( I mean…me) is quite exciting in a way, as I imagine myself to really read this in 10 years time. I wonder where will I be in life. Are we still living in Berlin? Will we still keep gerbils as pets (most probably different ones from now, since they only have a life span of 3 years)?? How is our little family? Did we decide to try another round of IVF/FET for a second child??

Do you still remember how special this year was when reading this letter now? It was the year our little snowflake Nanami was born. And even more special since it is October which means, it’s the month she was taken out of the freezer bank in the IVF lab – still a tiny embryo – and transferred into my womb. It gives me the chills in a positive way (of course!) thinking about it right now. I wonder if that feeling is still the same in October 2024??!!

I’m looking at our precious daughter, now almost 3 months old and try to picture her in 10 years from now…what will she look like? What will she wear? What is she into these days? Maybe, she will be right by your…my side when reading this letter from 2014. What a mind-boggling thought!

It’s weird to think that when I read this in 10 years, I – you – will probably have all the  answers to these questions & thoughts.I can’t wait to see what it’s like!

Send me back a smile!
– mefrom2014

Wishes on an ’ema’

Whenever I look at the little wall space above my desk, I see this pretty wooden tablet in the shape of a ginkgo leaf and I smile…

This is an ’ema’ (votive picture tablet usually made of wood) that we bought at the Tsurugaoka Hachiman-gû (a Shintô Shrine) in Kamkura, Japan about a year ago. Usually, you buy them at the shrine, write your wish on the back of it and hang it on the racks that are put up in front of the shrine. It’s always really interesting to look at those and the many messages or wishes people from all over the world wrot on such ema in many different languages, too!

This one however, I found too pretty to leave there at the shrine and so I had to take it home with me. I still wrote my wish on the back of it as you can see^^. It says: “I want to make/have a child and live happily with my husband forever.”

Ever since we returned from our Japan trip last year I had it hanging right above my desk, so that whenever I lift my head I automatically look at it. It kept me wishing, helped motivate me to try again and again (even when we failed) with making a family. Now that this wish seems to have come true (I’m still a bit scared it’s all just a dream from wich I have to wake up too soon), I look at it and start to smile…(^_^)